AnIndianStudent

This post is about my experiences and hardships I went through my journey of preparing for neet. I would agree, my life wasn't really that hard. I would even go as far to say that some part of me enjoyed it. I mean, I had friends with whom I had a lot of fun with.  Lets divide this post into 3 sections: 1) 1st year. 2) 2nd year. 3) Post-neet. 1st year: My great NEET preparation journey begins. I remember my first day of coaching crystal clear. All I was carrying with me was a bag with 3 notebooks, some modules and my trusty nokia button phone. I was one of the first to arrive at the class, so I was playing Tetris on my nokia. Yay epic gaming moment.    Then comes a person who I don't recognize at that moment, because obviously everyone were new to me. I didn't bother to ask his name and he didn't either. Then we had our introductions in class. I felt warm and welcomed by my classmates. I didn't really like our campus, it was very old and god forbid anyone from talki...

Well I apologize for not writing for so long. I promise to be regular from now. I will make a blog once a week for sure. Coming to neet. Well I scored about 550/720 with a AIR of 64000 and SR of about 1126. Its exactly what I expected but not I hoped for. Things are different after neet. A lot different than I imagined it to be. Despite of me scoring a average mark in neet, I am eligible for going to a med school in my state. Well its not aiims but I ain't got much of a choice. Well its not that forced too. Its okish. I convince myself by saying I got different goals. I'll live.  Now I don't really want to talk about my college choices because i think its too soon. So lets talk about other stuff going in my life right now. 1) I joined gym. Its good. I am getting fit. I hate the dieting part. I promise i am not working out for getting girls.I am doing it for myself. I deserve it. 2) Eternal boredom. I'm always bored. my passion for books diminished a bit. Am re-watching ...

2 weeks to go. I am absolutely taken down now. My marks are climbing from grave, very slowly, at a pace that it's futile. Fuck that girl in my class who always tops. My dream is aiims. She's achieving it while I am planning on taking long term. It's pathetic. It's useless. I am useless. I have no future planning. Why am I such a useless piece of shit?                  Actually less than two weeks. I am really sad about the idea of taking a long term. I will miss a year worth of life, studying the shit I've done before while all others will be fucking getting ahead in their fucking careers. What if i screw up my long-term too. Fuck me. I will just die. That's what I am going to do. I will die.             But I don't think I'll screw up my long term. If I don't get Outta of this state, I will never forgive my self. I should get out. I have to go north india. I have to go Jammu. That's 650 marks right there. I...

I t starts today. My Neet prep. The long and hard grind stretched over a period of 36 days.  My procrastination is my biggest enemy. I promise that from today, only entertainment I'll be getting is either learning how to type or reading a novel. I'll stop watching YouTube and basically any other social media. I'll try my best.