This post is about my experiences and hardships I went through my journey of preparing for neet.
These are some pictures I found in my albums from that time :).
I would agree, my life wasn't really that hard. I would even go as far to say that some part of me enjoyed it. I mean, I had friends with whom I had a lot of fun with.
Lets divide this post into 3 sections:
1) 1st year.
2) 2nd year.
3) Post-neet.
1st year:
My great NEET preparation journey begins.
I remember my first day of coaching crystal clear. All I was carrying with me was a bag with 3 notebooks, some modules and my trusty nokia button phone. I was one of the first to arrive at the class, so I was playing Tetris on my nokia. Yay epic gaming moment.
Then comes a person who I don't recognize at that moment, because obviously everyone were new to me. I didn't bother to ask his name and he didn't either. Then we had our introductions in class. I felt warm and welcomed by my classmates. I didn't really like our campus, it was very old and god forbid anyone from talking about the rest rooms. Despite my initial hesitation, i decided to stay just because i was scoring a pretty good rank in that class in weekly mocks which kind of boosted my ego and gave me a motivation to stay.
Then a few days passed, sections got divided and everything felt less confusing now. I made new friendships in the class room. Mostly I stayed to myself and the boys and rarely approached girls in my class, because I was just so insecure back then.
Then I hit plateau, I stopped scoring good. By the end of the year I was no longer in top 5. Every teacher got tired of me. They claim that I was too lazy to do anything, which to most extend was true but I did study for my mocks.
Coming to the academic part of my first year: I did not make much notes. I rarely listened to any of my classes. I just studied biology because it was relatively easier. I avoided studying physics at all costs. IP was a bit stressful. I was constantly attacked by my teachers.
2nd Year:
After the vacations, our second year started. Many of my friends became strangers and many strangers became my friends. Sri and I became very close in our 2nd year. I did loose some of my friends.
I was seen worthless by my teachers. They lost interest in me. They no longer used to bother me to study. That made me feel bad. So I started studying for real. I was making notes, listening to classes, doing papers etc.
I was so hyped up that I believed from my heart that I would make it into aims. ( oh boy, I was so naïve. Now that I think about it, I promised my dad that I will surely make it into aiims. He became so happy every time I promised him that. Now that I didn't even make it to top 3 colleges in state let alone be aiims, My dad is probably heart broken. He literally never mentions about that promise. But we both know that I have failed him. I didn't fulfill my promise. That's a regret I am bound to carry for a long time).
I made 2 new friends in 2nd year. Sai and Mo. God they're freaking awesome. All the boys( we were not many tho) we had such a vibe. Our typical day consisted of listening classes, jokes, laughs, food, more jokes, gossips and study hours which were mostly spent talking only if sri has not interrupted us. Sri was my closest friend in my 2nd years of coaching. I'll talk about him on another day. But everything was pretty chill. We had our events like teachers day etc..
Then the serious time started. REVISION. Everything changed slowly. Most of the guys went into study mode. We talked less often. Everything became so serious. The timings were extended. Although that didn't effect me because I was always late to class. I was very often lectured by my principle. We all worked hard. Tried to cross each other ranks in mocks. I was always average, although I was mostly in top 5, never got 1st rank.
It was truly stressful. Our bio and phy faculty stopped teaching. They said it was revision and we were supposed to do everything. Our new phy teacher was my favorite at first. But ever since the revision started, he stopped teaching. That made all of us to hate him. Also we didn't have a proper botany teach, so yea it sucked. Then we had our labs, they went good. Then we had board prep and exams which also went okish.
Then started neet prep- last 35 or so days.
I tried to study at home. It didn't really happen, i wasted a lot of time. I went to coaching for last 20 or some days.
My Modules.
Then I gave neet.
Post-neet:
But I've lost few friends now. And I bet my soul that friends that I do have now will be gone very soon.
Its sad but inevitable.
Conclusion: Although I hate many aspects of my past two years, They made me into a person who I am today. A friendship only stays when both the people are involved into it. Its never an one side thing,
*I'll edit this post often or make continuation parts of it because I pretty sure I didn't mention a large amount of stuff that happened ☠.*
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